is it true?

the past few days have been like a roller coaster ride...well, that's what i am feeling literally. can't help feeling seasick and been having uncomfortable sleep as well. must be because of the changes that's happening rite now.

last sunday was really a turning point. we did the test twice and both of us cried both times. i really do not want to bring our hopes up too high only to have it crashing. so the next day, monday, we went to a doctor. he confirms it.

i don't really dare to tell everyone. just parents and siblings. i don't know why, but it is quite scary. the possiblilities of complications are endless but i try not to think too much about it. i am somehow afraid to tell a lot of people in case Allah thought that I was showing off and changed His mind....i know it's crazy but that's how my mind is right now, crazy.

been crying or laughing about the simplest things. my hubby must think that i am crazy. he even mentioned that if he can survive NS for 2 years, what's nine months...hehehe. not been craving much except for some simple things like mcdonalds filet o fish and nasi lemak bungkus for breakfast.

aside from the nauseous feeling, the only other thing that is making me wince is the fact that i am already putting on a lot of weight. aaaahhhh! i really don't want to put on too much weight cos i know getting rid of it later is a torture but i really can't restrict my diet. i can't seem to be hungry. i need to be eating something the moment i feel a slight hunger. if not, i will be feeling seasick again. very seasick!

i am just hoping and praying that everything would go smoothly and this seasick feeling would be over soon....